What am I supposed to feel?


I have relatives and friends in Mumbai. Luckily they live on the outskirts, nowhere near Colaba. Though, my uncle had been to the Taj that afternoon. He returned back to base much before anything happened, thankfully. Just like he was planning on going jogging on the beach in Pondicherry the morning of the Tsunami, but changed his mind at 5 am… but that’s beside the point.

Oh, and I was supposed to go to Forum Mall but didn’t the day they found explosives there. And I watched them defuse a bomb outside Military School on July 25 on my way back home.

After all these ‘close-shaves’, what am I supposed to feel? I can’t feel ‘the spirit of India’ or ‘the resilience of the people’. It is a scary feeling when you know you could have been pushing the daisies along with the rest of the victims. You certainly do not want to feel that emotion again. It’s not the same feeling as thanking God for saving you when you narrowly miss falling off a skyscraper or something. Because you know that a terrorist attack means sure death or maiming, and that it can happen to anyone anytime. And a terror attack is NOT an accident.

Everyone says ‘we need to stay calm’. Yes, I know panic makes things worse, but how can I put my mind at rest when I’ll be had next time if not this time? I don’t mind not panicking, but they expect me to behave as if nothing’s wrong. When it so clearly is.

Everyone says ‘Be resilient, if we show we are affected, the terrorists have had their way’. Why should I pretend nothing’s happened? Doesn’t the incident deserve the attention it does? Don’t I need to acknowledge in some way? Some way different from placing flowers and lighting candles, of course.

And I feel helpless, because there is nothing I can do to stop these attacks. My life is not in my own hands. It never was, but there never was this level of uncertainity when it came to “Will I be alive and well in the next fifteen days?”. And there is nothing I can do about it.

Or is there?

There must be some way citizens can assert their right to live.

Voting is one way. But the average Indian considers it a choice between the Devil and the deep blue sea. Anyway, I don’t think there is any point in advising people about who to vote for… that is the job of others.

I suppose we should form Citizens’ Vigilance Groups. Because terror can’t take such a form without the explicit complicity of locals. When people can agitate so much that people stop bursting crackers during Diwali, I’m sure people can go about educating others on the little things they do that create a loophole which terrorists use. You can go about making it compulsory for police verification of prospective tenants, but nothing will happen unless citizens themselves take the initiative.

You have richkid Rahul Bose blabbing that he does not want India to become a Police State. I’m sure he and his ilk will successfully stop any stringent measure to contain terrorists from being implemented. So what’s the solution? Locality watch. Where people of a certain locality make sure they know each other reasonably well that any oddness is spotted immediately. Like the guy claiming to be from Gulbarga, but who speaks English and Urdu and not Kannada or Marathi. Or the guy claiming to be a Malay citizen but who speaks Urdu and doesn’t pepper his sentences with ‘Lah’s and doesn’t know too much about KL and doesn’t know about the existence of Michelle Yeoh. Or the engineer from NITC who has strange friends dropping over. Or the reclusive Yahoo! engineer who stops everyone at the door and says bye.

Sure, it’s not going to stop all attacks, but it makes it a wee bit more harder for them to find a safe house.

And… such a group which shares a common interest will be able to agitate for speedy justice to be administered in case of caught terrorists, and balance out those Human-Rights activists.

We have groups to agitate for water, power and good roads in their localities. Since basic safety is a more pressing concern, why can’t existing groups make it part of their agenda?

Janaagraha, Mr. Ramesh Ramanathan, are you listening?

Update: I guess I exaggerated the vigilantism bit. It probably wouldn’t have that much of an impact in that direction, considering there are always entire neighbourhoods full of brainwashed folks who’ll very nicely collude in hiding terrorists. But where citizens can help is in forming pressure groups. Groups that pressurize the government and media to make sure terror is not let go scot free. Like people can agitate for the immediate execution of Afzal Guru, or pressurize the ATS into investigating all these attacks more efficiently… or something like that.

Another area where citizen groups can help is in creating awareness. Jaago Re and all is great, but groups of citizens just like you telling you to get off your seat and register yourself to vote has a better impact that radio and TV ads. Also, most people have a very cliched idea of politics, and assume it’s all blame-game and siphoning off funds. This perception needs to be changed, because it is not true of all politicians. It’ll be great if these citizen groups actually went about spreading awareness about each political party, each controversy, and told people not just the TRP-generating stuff. Distant dream, lots of technical glitches here – like how do you keep it unbiased , but worth a try all the same.

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3 Responses to What am I supposed to feel?

  1. Tuna Fish says:

    These are hardened Jihadis we are talking about here, not the neighborhood thief. They are brainwashed to take as many down before they go down. These people are commando trained, and cannot be handled by the average policeman with lathis in VT station. It takes more than the neighbourhood nightly watch, to get them down. Odds are high that you will last thinking “May I help you?” if they decide to open fire, let alone be the amateur sleuth who saves the day. For all you know, the guy around the corner, who is offering to help you to combat terrorism, might be the-next-plotter-in-disguise, they are that clever.

    What has happened in Bombay, is a cleverly elaborately planned scheme, with a bigger intension, perpetrated not by those jihadis, but their big bosses. Until, you solve the problem there, nothing is going to happen.

    Getting scared, and disrupting your day, you are just falling into their trap. You are terrorized

  2. Logik says:

    A guy claiming to be from G’barga may choose not to speak either Kannada and Marathi.. Not a good acid test.
    And have to agree with tuna on this.. Vigilante stuff works against petty people. Not the people who are readily willing to die.
    I suppose the first thing, even at the cost of the freedom of press, is to strengthen their self-regulatory mechanism. They have to work on their research, ideology management, propagandism, and finally a sensible and rational approach to presenting their content.
    I don’t see the necessity for example:
    1. To display the entire contents of the hate-(emails, phone calls, sms’s,) etc to the entire nation. Effortless coverage for the terrorist’s propaganda just builds hate on one side, and dare I say, senseless camaraderie and fanaticism on the other .
    2. For Barkha Dutt to jump up and down in front of the Taj, and look sheepishly to check if the live coverage has started yet, so that the melodramatics can begin. Yes Mam, we know that you are the bravest dame in the lands, and that NDTV is having its 20th b’day of sorts. But keep all that pent up excitement to yourself, and do an objective coverage.
    3. Of Arnab (Times Now), and Rajdeep Sardesai( cnn ibn). I wish they do weather reporting for the rest of their sodding lives, on radio.

    4. Of live coverage in case of crisis events. You might as well as put a huge loudspeaker, and start announcing Knight to A3, Pawn to C4 on each of your strategic moves. As though the terrorists didn’t already have an upper hand to begin with. And trust me, we paranoid people are better off without seeing your reporters’ deranged faces.

  3. wanderlust says:

    actually…. i beg to differ.
    the Gulbarga thing… this is why i put it up.
    Last year, the police in gulbarga caught two people on some improper-vehicle-documents charge. while in custody, one constable noticed rather glaring inconsistencies – they had said they were originally from north karnataka, but they could not speak kannada OR marathi. they kept talking only to each other, never mixed with the other prisoners, and talked only in urdu.
    okay, maybe you can say they were uneducated and/or ghettoized, but then they spoke fluent english.
    now since the chances of the ghetto inmate joining only an english-speaking course and still not knowing the local language are rather low, so investigations deepened.
    turned out they were terrorists.

    >>the guy around the corner, who is offering to help you to combat terrorism, might be the-next-plotter-in-disguise, they are that clever
    that’s true of the sleeper cell guys, but those who have been flown in especially from b’desh and pakistan for this… they will not mix, they will not talk, they will lie, their cultural differences will easily betray them on that… and they’ll say they are students when a five minute conversation will prove they are not… instead of putting a someone-else’s-problem-field around any such inconsistency you notice, we can just bring it to the notice of someone who can check their papers and passports to see if they really are who they claim to be.
    now the majority of us won’t come across these creatures, coz their safe havens are in localities different from ours… but when we do, we should know we have.

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